Mom, it's been 2 weeks since I got the worst phone call of my life saying you were gone. I have felt so empty and so lost since that day. It's so weird how just one phone call can turn someones world upside down. I'm just happy that our last words were "i love you" and i'm lucky that we had such a close relationship that i have no regrets. Mom..i pick up the phone at least 3 times a day to call you...this is just such a big adjustment..The kids are really trying hard to understand and deal with it because they know that grandma loved them with all her heart. Someone gave me a poem and out of everything that everyone has said to me in the last two weeks this poem is what have me the most comfort....

To Those I Love
And Those Who Love Me

While I am gone release me, let me go
I haev so many things to see and do.
You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that we had so many beautiful years.
I gave to you my love. You can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness
I thank you for the love you each have shown.
But now it's time I traveled on alone
To grieve for me a while if grieve you must
Then let your grief be comforted by trust,
Ti's only a while that we must part,
To bless the memories within your heart.
I won't be far away, for life goes on,
So if you need me, call and I will come,
Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near.
And if you listen with your heart,
You'll hear all my love around you soft and clear
And then when you must come this way alone,
I'll greet you with a smile and say...

"Welcome Home"

Mom i love you and miss you so much i can't begin to describe it....Today I go pick up mine and the kids charms with your ashes in it. We will treasure and cherish them. I know it will make us feel closer to you knowing you are here with us. I need to feel you mom....we talked about that...for now.....bye......i love you!