2 nicole, with love:

its been 5 mos. Since you left us all with such great sadness, but I can still see your beautiful smile so clear in my head
I was very upset 2day thinking of you, so I juz laid there and cried on my bed
The song says “only the good die young” but I juz cant believe it was already ur time to go
There are so many questions that will forever remain unanswered but there is only one thing id like to know
My one big question for you nikki is why you made this unfair choice
I would give anything to rite now be able to hear ur sweet lil voice
2day for the first time in a while I walked in the house and it felt so empty and cold
I felt like I was ready to juz give up like you did and lay my cards down and fold
I walked upstairs expecting to see u sitting on my bed waiting for me
But you weren’t there and its because you were ready to be set free
Set free from this cruel world of chaos, that you decided was too hard for you to face
But you know you didnt have to face it alone, I was rite by ur side, but u decided to go on to a better place
However I don’t feel it’s a better place b/c I need you here with me and so does mom and dad
But for many reasons you felt that you couldn’t go on because you were way too sad
I juz don’t understand why a 13 year old baby would want to leave the world already, for ur life had juz begun
But we cant go back now even tho I wish more than anything we could, but you cant undo those things that have already been done
I miss you lil sis, more than words could ever explain, I never knew a person could feel this much pain
Sum days are wonderful but others I feel if I don’t talk to you, I will go insane
I cant wait to see you again, I wish I told u how much I loved u b4 it was too late
you better be waiting for me with “open arms” , when its my turn to walk thru the gate
I guess its true you should never take those you love for granted for you never know what lies ahead
“ill see you soon, I love you” were the last words that you said
Up in heaven to you, all my love I send
U r in my every thought and prayer, amen

~~nikki, you are missed by the whole family~~

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