Tuesday, 1:30pm

Hi Baby,

I've never had a bigger lump in my throat than what I do right now. The end of our conversation just now, when I said that I could say it because I knew what I felt. The fact that you didnt say it back....I cant describe the feeling. But I'll accept it, because I dont want you to say something unless you mean it. For me to know that you loved me as much as you said you did just a few short weeks ago....and now...I dunno. Baby, I wish you the best in whatever you do, I have always stood behind your every decision and supported you the best I could. And just because I worry about you doesnt mean that I'm against you or the decisions you make. But for you to say that your feelings are different for me because of my opinion.....thats wrong. I have been there for you everytime you have needed me....I have never turned my back on you, whether I agreed or not. Your opinion and decision on things did not make me fall in love with you. I feel in love with you because you made me feel more than I have in a long time, you believed in me, respected me, and never asked me to be someone other than myself, thats who I fell in love with. And the fact is.....

I STILL LOVE YOU, and I'm not ashamed to say it. Just as much as I did 7 weeks ago. Its how I feel! I cant control my feelings. I can deny them, I can try to hide them, but I cant control or change them.

I'm sorry if I make you feel as if I dont support your decisions. That was never my intent. Maybe one day you will understand.